The love of Cooking

I'm convinced that no wife loves it all. I could be wrong, and that isn't the point really. Some women love being moms, some love raising their children, some love cleaning, keeping their home tidy and spotless, some love decorating, others are great at baking desserts and sweets, breads, etc. And then there are wives that love to cook. That would be me.  On the other hand I do enjoy having a clean home. Fortunately for me, my husband isn't very messy so I don't have to mop the floor everyday. :-) To some women cooking is a hassle. To me it is a delight. I just like to make fun things nothing too difficult. In January I learned to crochet. My first crafty venture. I made a scarf for myself. I didn't want to risk making my first item for someone else and it turn out ugly. I was pleasantly surprised it turned out pretty. Here it is.

Well to my surprise I realize that some women find cleaning very rewarding almost fun. That is strange to me. I see it as a necessary task. But what I also don't see yet is how mothers find raising children as fun. :-( Yes that sounds horrible for me to say. But honestly I fear it. I fear not enjoying motherhood. So many people say to me it's different when they are your own... but after reading blogs, seeing mothers, talking to mothers... I sometimes think, "Really? Are you sure?" Because these mothers I hear complaining don't seem to be complaining about other children. It's their own "precious" babies. I'm waiting to feel ready to be a mother. It sometimes feels like I could be close and then I get a dose of reality on how you lose your own life and have to give up everything for that "precious" being. I love taking care of my husband. I love cooking for, cleaning for, and loving him. Sometimes I feel I could take care of one more... but I'm not sure I could take on 2 or 3. And a baby is a lot more difficult than a grown man.

Just thoughts... But after seeing all my friends prego and thinking "aww... when that time comes it will be soo special!" I sometimes get doubts and feel overwhelmed before I even begin.
Well after all those worries, I heard this sermon on Grace. On how God gives you the Grace for the season that he has for you. How sometimes we are blessed with a Gift and we may or may not be graced to do it during that season. I think there have been times when I have done things in the Grace of God and out of the Grace of God. There have been things I have tried to make myself do not in God's grace and there are things I refused to do that God was giving me the grace to do. My husband and I are newlyweds. I guess I have time to grow into those mommy feelings. Until then, I will pray for the Grace of God when the time comes. Also, I will continue to share with you my new recipes I'm learning or creating. No wise mommy stories and No wise married advice because I'm still learning. Just yummy, good cooking.

Here's a better pic of the Mixed-berry muffins I shared in my last post.