A Promise

6 years ago I wanted to go out and change the world for Christ. The ministry school I was most interested in was called Christ For the Nations. I was a Junior in High School. My heart had been drawn to Jesus and that was probably one of the few things that stayed the same over the time that passed. I have always wanted to do mission work but my idea of mission work and what it means to minister has changed drastically.

6 years ago my parents encouraged me to attend ACU or any university. They thought it would be wise for me to pursue an education before I pursued my dreams of full time missions ministry. Yeah... I didn't want to do that. I was ready! I wanted to be trained and go out ASAP! I ended up applying for ACU after being advised by leaders in my life to honor my parents' wishes because they were founded in wisdom. I was persuaded to put my passion for full time mission work aside for a while to get "an education". A full tuition scholarship to ACU helped me realize even more that this was a part of God's plan. Well, I finished my degree in four years and immediately took one of the first opportunities to go live abroad, teaching in South Korea.

It was hard. It was tiring. It was supposed to pay well, so I could payback my loans and do ministry afterwards. It didn't work the way I thought it would.

In Korea, I wasn't surrounded by a team of mission workers as I had always wanted. In a lot of ways God taught me to trust Him despite disappointment. I realized, afterward, God had led me to be in Korea to be broken... It worked.

Over the past six years or more, I felt a passion slowly growing in me for worshiping God and leading others in worship. I didn't have the courage to pursue my passion until after I lead worship in Japan the summer before I moved to Korea. So... I looked up a lot of schools of worship while in Korea and came back to Abilene desiring to do worship ministry. Praying, if it was God's will, to open the door.

I felt CFNI was the right school. Well after biting my nails (figuratively) for two months and some phone calls that seriously left me feeling that I was not going to get accepted into the school. I was informed this Thursday that I had been accepted into CFNI's School of Worship. And God immediately brought back to my mind the dream I had forgotten about. The words he had spoken to me summed up to "If I honored my parents wishes then He would honor my desires and dreams of ministry".

God is Faithful and Good. I held out on my own desires, to honor my parents wishes first. I was blessed through it. I received a lot of training and teaching at ACU. I'm soo thankful for that. Also I gained a lot of life experience in those six years. I travelled to 15 different countries in those six years. I didn't get my life all figured out... ha ha. Yeah... that would be nice. But it's good. His plan is GOOD. And he hears my prayers.