Everyday

When I was a teenager. Not that long ago. I went to summer camp every year. It was awesome. One song that I remember being my favs back then was "Everyday" It went

"Everyday it's you I live for, Everyday I follow after you...".

I sang it and hoped to live it daily. I wanted to live for God each day.

I did a lot of praying in high school. I think I grew so confident in who God was making me into. But, when college came around with guys, love, job aspirations, dreams, and failed dreams... Living for God was sometimes pushed to the side and living for me became a much easier thing.

So, I came to CFNI's School of Worship. Pursuing this dream. Then I realized a lot of my motivation for this dream was self motivated. I mostly wanted more confidence, but I found that I wanted more acceptance, approval and praise for myself as well.

But, I went to the wrong school to get puffed up. Instead any balloon of pride I held was popped. Still hearing the popping actually. It's good. And I realize more than anything. I want to make each day a gift to God by listening and obeying and just being with Him. AND ALSO... by serving Him. I realized that I had began to serve myself. I feel like I live for myself sometimes still. I have to remember to not compartmentalize my life. But to give it all to Him. To ask Him to join me in every place I go, in everything I do. So that He can work through me in each of those places and I don't get in the way. "For it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me" Galations 2:20.