WIMP! I heard it A LOT growing up. Oh believe me I tried to prove them otherwise. Sometimes fighting back as hard as I could! Unfortunately, I wasn't very successful. Well, maybe it is fortunate.
The result: I am not going out for the role of Wonder Woman. You know the women who say "God won't give me more than I can handle" and just grin and bear it all through life. In fact, I tend to overreact when first faced with complications and troubles. I now proudly confess to being a wimp. In fact that's kind of my life's philosophy on much of the things that I encounter. You may think "Wow, she is so weak and pathetic. What a cry baby." Well, sometimes, Yeah, I am.
I will admit I have to ask for help A LOT. I like advise. Yet, each time I learn something new and I usually gain a wealth of information from the situation. In fact, with the knowledge of my weaknesses I know I can Always go to God and ask him for help. I don't worry about how I failed to achieve doing it on my own. Nope, I like leaning on God and even those who love me and will help me. I am truly grateful for them. I ask God to take difficult things away too- burdens, loneliness, fears and frustrations that are heavy to carry. I ask him to guide me through my struggles and the storms of my life. I don't agree with the mindset that this is the hand we are dealt and we just have to live with it and do the best we can. NOPE.
I could "Be Strong" and carry every burden and trouble I face all by myself but I figure a lot people have already proven their amazing Will Power and Strength against difficult odds. I wouldn't be the first one to be called Wonder Woman. I wouldn't be really special because I chose to prove how tough I am. There are so many things that I have asked God to take from me because I truly didn't want to handle them alone. Sometimes I knew I could handle them but I just didn't want to. I probably would survive doing things on my own but I believe I don't have to be Superwoman and I don't want to be. In fact, it is when I ask God for help that I realize how faithful he is to deliver even when I feel so very undeserving. I feel like WOW! You didn't even have to do that God, I would have been ok really but you chose to do that for me just because of your Amazing love for your daughter.
Thankfully God does take the things I can't handle away many times. Other times, I have had to lean on him. In those troubling times he gives me strength that I don't have on my own. I've definitely faced things that I really hated. Things that made me feel like there was no way I would get past it. Things that made me want to stop trying in life. Just give up. Quit. What's the point anymore. It can be frustrating at first when you face trials. You ask "why me". Sometimes I get angry thinking "God, why aren't you taking this away?" Then he gently shows me he is with me and everything will be ok. He shows me that eventually I will be able to see relief. He helps me see there will be someone that I will encounter in life that I will be able to help who is going through a similar situation. Slowly, I start to feel lighter. Sometimes it takes days, other times it takes months but I eventually realize God is carrying the load as I begin to trust Him...
God helps me through each trial whether it's providing the strength or taking the issue away altogether. One thing I know is: No issue has been too big or too small for my God. He is faithful and Good even when I don't understand.
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